Saturday, December 11, 2004
Weather: Rain
Mood: I dunno how to describe the feelings right now...

Dark ages approached mi and jus had left when i saw the beacon of light that told mi everything i needed to noe.. and wad i need nt to noe... well for the past few weeks she has been keeping mi in the dark that she had left for another guy... maybe when she was back frm the aus she liked that guy already... ditched mi... went to his side... that was way quick... too fast... at that time she didnt tell mi that she liked another guy but tell mi that our relationship is hard to keep... she didnt tell mi the real reason... she didnt ask mi y or ask mi how can we help to our relationship... cos its all useless... she liked another guy already... wat i do is all useless... she didnt want to meet mi cos she was meeting another.... she didnt wan to talk on the phone cos she was talking to another... now my feelings... i dunno whether to describe it as in the state of between indifference or hatred... its all so confusing... maybe i press down my emotional side and let my logistical thinking head take over of wat am i doing... its all too sudden... i dunno wad i will do next... if i let my emotional side took over... she was too harsh on mi... cos i still placed hopes in her... now... there is nt even a single hope animore... i doubt i ever hve that same feelings for her... i hve realli nth to do with her animore... its not even the frenz thingy... no enemy... but basically indifference... if she ever gets into troubles... i will nver bother bout her life or death ... its nt all my prob... to tink last time i cared for her so much... now... its her way and my way... though she left a painful scar in mi... jus to let her noe all tis... i need to heal... she is too vicious... she has hurt the red muscle in mi... without knowing or on purpose... tis i am nt sure... but i all hope is that... she leave mi alone... i dun wan to speak to her... talk to her... or to hve any involvment with her... best if on the streets if we meet... i wont greet u... but i wont jeer at u... i will jus hve indifference... and in my head i ask.. who is tis girl? i will never tink of u again... u hve done too much to be forgiven that easily... well my last words... good bye....

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